31st May 2024 to 11th June 2025

31st may was my last day in college as a student. I graduated ! My college journey was filled with highs and lows and I can definitely say, It has changed me for good.

My graduation journey had taught me some important principles in my life.

After my graduation, I had accomplished different tasks from shifting to new flat at bhandarkar road to a J&K trek amidst terror attacks to starting with my optional PSIR to completing my GS notes then finally, starting with prelims oriented study in January.

My prelims was on 25th May. Result came on 11th June (evening). I failed..

Now when i look back at my journey, I see some mistakes which I COULD'VE improved upon.

I could've improved my CSAT. I could've studied ancient and medieval history properly. I should have maintained my calmness in GS paper. I missed marking 1 question due to time constraint which I was sure shot and I could've applied logic properly. I knew how to solve CSAT questions but I lost my temperament in the initial half hour and it became the biggest nightmare.

This 1 year, from June 2024 to May 2025, not only had taken a toll on my mental health but my physical health too. I was living alone. for 365 days, alone. I remember some continuous days in which I missed human touch. Yes Hruday, days passed and haven't handshaked or touched anyone. This may sound ridiculous but if someone is in my place, he will definitely feel what I am saying.

Countless weekends passed, holidays passed, I ate my breakfast, lunch and dinner alone. At first, I was very much excited but I only know, how much this journey has fucked up with me. The people whom I considered 'friends' turned out to be the biggest problem in my life. They made me feel left out deliberately. I never imagined that my hostel friends would turn out to be such a toxic group of facades. College life's huge success with multiple awards and fame and respect vanished away in just one night. 

LIFE  GOT  BALANCED

If it were not for some 5 people in my life, I could've gone mad.

BUT NEVERTHELESS,

Sun rose again. I bounced back again. 

I am promising myself that I will work on the things which I took lightly. I will not get emotionally attached with anyone easily. I will be consistent, diligent and disciplined till my CSE 2026 results won't get announced. I will be grateful for each and every bit of happiness in my life and for my parents, my sister, my chacha, and ...-.-

Hruday, you have what it takes to clear this civil services. Be patient and be focused ❤️🪢

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